it's been 3 days since i had this daily routine. whole day spent in my room, doing everything i can, and doing nothing, just stare and think and mind-wander.
staring at the-photograph-i've-printed-last-night for hours like an idiot and wonder if i could touch it for real.
more caffeines, more nicotines, more and more.
surfing on the internet for daaays, fortunately juned is as strong as a horse like i haven't shut it down since 3 days ago.
reading tarot for myself. it said a thing about obsession, well i don't know what's that mean.
doing what i called pleasure-of-pain, oh i wish i had lime here to make it tasted better.
later on.