self survey #36

Age:22

Sex: Female

Label yourself (prep, goth, druggie, weirdo, etc.)
i don't know where to put myself. but i never considered myself as a normal people.

How long have you been cutting?
4 years.

Tool(s) you used to cut with?
cutter.

Where (place) do you cut? (school, home, etc.)?
In my room far away from everyone else.

Do you have to hide your whole arm(s) (wrists,forearms,& upper arms etc.)?
no. sometimes i love when people scared of my arm.

Do you cut on your stomach, or chest?
no.

Are your legs, arms, & other body parts covered in scars?
My left arm. but they've faded.

What’s your favorite excuse to use when someone asks about a cut?
self satisfaction.

Have you ever been hospitalized because of your cutting?
No. i didn't mean to kill myself.

Off the top of your head, about how many scars do you have?
I don’t know.

Who knows you cut?
close friends. and some relatives who accidentally see my scars.

Have you ever been caught cutting?
yes.

Did you have a good childhood?
Absolutely wonderful.

Why do/have you cut?
i said that before. self satisfaction.

Have you ever talked to a therapist or counselor?
no. i quit doing self harm.

Do you want to stop cutting (but can’t because of addiction)?
i have. or i think i have. ha

Do you like cutting?
i don't know. sometimes i do, sometimes i don't.

How many times have you tried to complete suicide?
never.

Do you like looking at pictures of self-injury?
yes.

Do you sometimes envy other people? (non-self-injurers)?
no.

Have you ever taken any pictures of your cuts/scars?
yes.

Do you want to die?
lol no. i still owe many things to my life.

Have you ever done a school assignment on cutting, or self-injury?
no.

Have you ever needed stitches from cutting?
no.

Do you dream about cutting?
Sadly yes.

Are you happy with your cutting?
look, it's not that simple to say wether i'm happy or not with my cutting. first, it looks horrible, and make me look like a psychotic person. but when 'that times' come, i got an extreme pleasure with every stroke my cutter scratched. at normal times, i never wanted to do that. but you know, nothing is always normal in life.