"If you read, you'll judge", Kurt said.

So I just bought this cool yet scary book. It's Kurt Cobain's journal. First time i saw it, i was like "Wow, heaven of hollow". Something that tickled my mind was i got to know what's been going on his head. I mean, what kind of fuckeries that could led him into that phenomenal suicide, despite the probability of me free falling into rock bottom after reading this. This book might be as scary as the suicide itself.

So from yesterday i started to read this book. First few pages, he seemed like a regular boy, who really was ambitious in getting a record label, dealt with internal band problem, had to kick Dave off the band OVER A MERE MAIL, and some firstly sexual experiences.
Most of them are song lyrics, and absurd coition comics. Until i arrived at one page, where a horrible story written. really horrible i almost got my panic disorder back. yuck. and i don't want to spoil any clues here, and i haven't continued my read ever since.
Maybe someday when life gives me guts to read,  i'll continue and give better judgement, or not at all.